I sent this to Mr. husband

While he was at work yesterday. I did take the test and what'a know I am preggers!!! It hit me today. I have been sick all day long. geeze. Here comes the roller coaster ride!! We are only telling family at the moment...oh and all of you....who really are not there. :)

To take the test or not too...

I started my last period on Christmas Eve. So does that mean I should wait until the 24th before I take a pregnancy test? I have a 5 days sooner than your missed period preggo test, yet I almost don't want to wast it if I am not pregnant. Those things aren't cheap you know!! I don't want to tell Mr. husband that I will be taking a test soon. If I am pregnant I want to do some sort of cutesy surprise to let him know. Maybe I will take it in the morning. I have had such an urge to pee all the time this week. Yet maybe I have been drinking too much....water that is.

I would love to stay and chat it up but seeing as no one reads this blog yet and I have a rug in the other room needing me to clean it I better go. If anyone does read this blog then say hello. Or don't and let me ramble on forever.

Oh and don't worry I am not the type of person to show you my pee stick. That is a bit creepy to me.

Contact Me

If you have any questions for me you can email me at pinknothings at yahoo

The past

I have Vaginismus. Most have never heard this word before. I had never heard of it until my doctor told me about it. It is a mental disorder with a physical reaction.
Here is a list of signs that you may have Vaginismus:
Ongoing Painful Sex
Unconsummated Couples
Vaginal Tightness/Burning with SexPenetration
Related Sexual PainPain after Surgery or Childbirth
GYN Exams, Tampon Problems
(I got these from Vaginismus.com)
Pretty much I have a fear of sex therefore my body reacts to protect me and not let any thing in. I could not use a tampon for years. The first time I did get one in I passed out from how traumatic it was for me. I will talk about this on my blog from time to time and go into more detail later. I just wanted to get it out there what it is.

We want another baby.

So right now I want to talk about how I am trying to have another baby. Mr. husband and I have one child. It was no easy road to get him. (I will talk more on that another time) Right now all I want to think about is how Mr. husband just walked in the room and told me we need to have sex tomorrow so we can have a baby. It's moments like that where I remember why I love him. How sweet is it that I have a man who cares. I get lost in a TV show called teen mom. I feel so bad that this girls thought these boys could be men. None of them are. except one. The one who gave his baby up for adoption is the sweetest. You can see he cares for his girlfriend and wants the best for her and their child. While the others who thought the guy would help out and stick around just aren't there for them. I am blessed.

At times I don't feel blessed.

Hello, I am new here.

I first had family blog. Then I created a mommy blog. Now I really need a place where my family and friends will not see all I write about. Sometimes it can be hard to hold things back because my sister-in-law reads my blog and I want to talk about her! So here is my place to write about what I have gone through going through and more. I was listening to a song that said something like
You see the smile that's on my face
it's hiding the words that don't come out.
All of my friends who think that I'm blessed
they don't know my life is a mess.
No, they don't know who I really am
and they don't know what I've been through like you do.
I was made for you.

I completely related and knew I had to write about what I have lived in my life. This is just a small intro. Also I will not post as much right now. I am really busy with my mommy blog which I am going to quit soon.
Thanks for stopping by.